CCT – Healing the Earth (January 17-18, 2016)

Calling All ‘Creatives’!


Are you a highly creative person?
Do you enjoy fine-tuning a skill, craft, or trade?
Do you look forward to starting new art projects?
Do you want to take your ability to the next level?

If you answered ‘Yes’, then the CCT Healing the Earth Class is for you!

The truth is, everybody has the ability to ‘be creative’, but… some can do it better than others!  No matter how you view yourself, YOU have the ability to create some pretty amazing things in life.

I have always been fairly creative… one of my art pieces from the 1st grade made it to the county fair that year… I once won 2nd place for a floral arrangement I submitted when I managed a flower shop… I won the equivalent of MVP in my high school band class 3 years in a row for playing the saxophone.  I’ve always enjoyed the creative process and how fun it feels to create something new!

A number of years ago, I took a class that amplified my ability to create to levels I couldn’t even imagine, and it still amplifies that ability every day.  That class is called ‘Healing the Earth… What are you here to do?’  In it, I learned a simple protocol that I do every time I work on a creative project, and because of that, I have created things that I never dreamed I would.  It is amazing what setting the right energy does for your focus and abilities!

I now teach this class, and I would love to have you experience it first-hand like I did several years ago.  Join me on Sunday & Monday, January 17th & 18th, and learn how you can utilize this tool to take your own creative endeavors to heights you can’t yet see. 

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Crying Eye with World

Are you sick and tired of all the violence beset on this world from terrorist and radical organizations, and disenfranchised and disconnected individuals?? I know I am!  The earth has changed, but there are many who are not transforming with it. It is high time we move into a better and more loving world.


One of the reasons I have devoted my life to an energy modality like Crystalline Consciousness Technique (CCT) is because I want to DO something about this problem. At first, I primarily used the tools available through the Crystalline Consciousness Academy to help myself and individuals around me. I then started to work with larger groups of people, and now, I’m working with world-wide groups. And… YOU CAN TOO!


Available for the next month or so, YOU can learn a stripped-down version of CCT in an accelerated way from the comfort of your own home, AND you can participate in helping to shift these radical groups and individuals into alignment with GROWTH and Harmony, not death and destruction.  The Earth has transformed, but there are many groups and individuals who are severely lagging behind and are resisting change and growth.  As a ‘Citizen of the Planet’, you have the power to help effectively change the climate of the world we live in.


The great news about this Homestudy program? YOU get to decide what you spend on it! For the next month or so, simply make a donation and get the information you need to learn and work with a basic-level introduction of the first two levels of CCT, AND learn how to participate in shifting the negative actions and reactions of terrorist and hurtful activist groups around the world.




To make your donation and get more information about this incredible offer, go to:


This Homestudy WILL be available in the future, but it will ONLY be available on a donation-basis til the end of December.  Do not wait!!
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I have so much to be thankful for this year… this won’t begin to cover it,
but it is where my heart is right now…

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  • I am thankful that I have so many people in my life whom I get to love, and I am thankful that I have so many people in my life who love me.

  • I am thankful that I get to travel so much and visit all of the people and experience this love first-hand.

  • I am thankful that I have a roof over my head, and a loving family underneath it.

  • I am thankful that I get to enjoy my profession to the degree I do.

  • I am thankful for the food on my table, for the clothes on my back, and that I have the ability to meet my own needs.

  • I am thankful that I have the perspective that I have, and I’m thankful for each and every one of my experiences in life.

  • I am thankful that I have a passion for so many things, and I am thankful that I get to experience many of things I am passionate about.

  • I am thankful that I can sense the support that Universe has provided me on my journey through this life.

  • I am thankful that I get to help so many people, and I am thankful for the hope I have that one day, it won’t be necessary.

  • I am thankful that I have so much optimism about life, and I’m thankful so many people resonate with it as well.

  • I am thankful for all the memories I have of Larry, and I’m thankful for the chance at experiencing more of him in the future.

  • I am thankful that I live in a world that accepts me for who I am, and that it supports me as I learn and grow.

Lastly, I am thankful that you took the time to read this…
thank you for witnessing my expression of gratitude!

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I had a wonderful experience this past weekend, and wanted to share it with you. It has to do with one of the tools I use, which you can learn for yourself in the upcoming Crystalline Family Class on January 22-24th…

So, I got to spend the weekend with several AMAZING Crystalline kids, and boy did they teach me a LOT! Each of them have their own special gifts and abilities. They also have unique hang-up’s and distortions too. I’m going to give you an example of a special gift/ability, and an example of a distortion.

It was a birthday party for the youngest boy, and let’s just say the “chaos” was running rampant. Children playing with old and new toys, birthday cake, a campfire, adults enjoying their adult beverages, lots of boisterous noise and excitement… At one point in the middle of the chaos, the eldest boy, about 10 years old, decided to sit in front of the fireplace and meditate! No prompting by an adult, he just felt like that was what he needed, so he sat down and did it. Boy was I impressed! In the middle of the chaos, to choose to do something like that is a HUGE indicator that he is very clear about what his needs are, and how to meet them. This is an example of a special gift/ability… to not only know HOW to meditate, but to recognize the need and address it is very impressive!

Shy Little Girl

The youngest girl (turning 4 years next month) was EXTREMELY shy. She shied away from speaking to adults, and even tried to bury her face behind ‘Mom’ on more than one occasion. It typically took several tries to get her to respond to a question, and even her playing with the other children was reserved. According to her Mom, she is shy with EVERYBODY!

So, one of the things that I teach in the Crystalline Family Class is how to communicate with (young) children in a completely different way than using words. One of the unique characteristics of Crystalline children is that they don’t necessarily use a tool like “words” to communicate… they use what is called the ‘Crystalline Energy Field’, and they access this by using what is called their ‘Crystalline Energy System’.

It is similar to psychic communication, but the system they use (the Crystalline Energy Field and their Crystalline Energy Systems) is much different. If I can boil it down to a sentence or two, it’s like each child in today’s world has a brand spankin’ new phone, newer than new even, and they can connect to others who have their own brand new phone too. This new phone they have works with a very special cell service that only they can access, and it is so easy and convenient to use, that all they have to do is barely think about using it and they’re connected. It is kind of like using Facetime on an iPhone… If two people have their own iPhone’s, you can utilize this application. If one (or more) doesn’t, it won’t work. And let’s face it, using a video chat feature like Facetime is WAY more fun and easy than just talking!

So, for Crystalline children, using words can be very clunky and heavy. Luckily for me (and the young girl), I happen to teach people how to communicate like she does! So, I connected with her via the Crystalline Energy Field, and within 5 minutes, she grabbed my hand and off we went to play the day away! She was NOT shy anymore! She and I could communicate in a way that the adults in her life don’t know how to do, and this brought her a much needed sense of Safety and Connection that she needs in order to feel comfortable speaking. By the end of the night, she was’t a stranger to anyone, and I even heard that later that night as Mom was putting her to bed that ‘she loves her Uncle Scott’. smile emoticon

If you have a small child who is shy, or is uncomfortable speaking to adults or other children, this Crystalline Family Class is an absolute MUST for you! In the class, you’ll get your own brand spankin’ new “phone” (i.e. your own Crystalline Energy System), and I’ll show you how to communicate (through the Crystalline Energy Field) with your children and other young one’s so that you can help them shed their insecurities so they can shine like they want to!

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Why should I choose Crystalline Consciousness?
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What is the benefit?
How does it work?

There are many energetic healing modalities out there… you could spend lifetimes learning them all.  I’ve had quite a bit of experience with the array of options available, but the one that I focus my attention on is called Crystalline Consciousness.  “Why?” you ask?  Well I’ll tell ya!

Every energetic healing modality comes from some place… most of the time, it comes from personal interaction and someone’s own power/energy/knowledge…. i.e. somebody uses their own energy to help someone else.  Other modalities draw on energy from the world around us… i.e. somebody taps into energy around them and either focuses it, manipulates it, or works with it to help someone else.

Crystalline Consciousness falls into the second category.  But here’s what makes it unique… Crystalline Consciousness Energy exists in the 12th dimension, and is the only energy to do so!  So when you choose to work with it, some amazing things happen.

First, you need an outline and structure to work with energy this high… this is where the technique of Crystalline Consciousness Technique comes in.  Crystalline Consciousness Technique is the BEST technique on the planet to work with Crystalline Consciousness Energy.  For more than a decade now, a dedicated team of practitioner’s and experts have devoted their lives to developing this technique, and continue to work with it to make it the BEST it can possibly be.  I was lucky to join this team in the last 5 years, and I LOVE watching how Crystalline Consciousness shapes itself to suit humankind’s needs every day, and how we use the technique to bring out the best of it.  There is NO other energetic modality out there that has a consistent and persistent studying and tweaking as CCT does, and to my knowledge, no other energy modality works with energy in the 12th dimension.

Second, when you choose to work with Crystalline Consciousness Energy through the technique of CCT, an AMAZING thing happens… because we are here on the planet in the 3rd dimension, AND choosing to work with energy that is located in the 12th dimension, the partnership that we create between these two ‘places’, and through EVERY one of our selves in each dimension, shifts every aspect of ourselves in each of those dimensions.  So… instead of working with only ‘part’ of ourselves, we are choosing to work with every single part of ourselves, which in turn makes our transformation(s) so much more powerful than anything we’ve experienced on this planet to date.

Lastly, CCT works with what is called the ‘3 Phases of Transformation’.  As I’ve mentioned in other blog posts, the 3 Phases of Transformation is the most powerfully transformative process on the planet.  In the first phase, you connect to a new potential of healing… you release fears around transforming and moving forward, and prepare yourself for the transformation you’re about to go through.  In the second phase, you release the trauma that’s being held in your body, mind, energetic or spiritual body, or all of them, and bring in your intention to move forward.  The third phase is like hitting ‘save’ on your computer after typing out a document… it ensures that you don’t go back from where you just came.

There are many more reasons why I choose to work with Crystalline Consciousness, and I’ll be sharing them in future blog posts.  If you like what you just read and would like to receive direct notification of future blog posts, be sure to subscribe to my blog at the top of the page.  You can also e-mail me at

With Love and Crystalline Light!

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Do you know what I love to do?  I LOVE to help individual people and groups of people move into Mastery.


What does this mean?  How do I do that?  Why do I love doing this?

Every day, we go through and experience any number of the phases of what is known as ‘The 3 Phases of Transformation’ (kind of sounds like the next Transformer’s movie title, doesn’t it?)… The 3 Phases included ‘Opening’, ‘Chaos’ (otherwise known as ‘Transformation’), and ‘Mastery’.  I am constantly writing about the 3 Phases of Transformation, where I break down each phase in several ways, so check out my other blog posts for more information!

In short, ‘Opening’ indicates the “start” of something new.  We can either choose what is in Opening for us (“I’m going to go take a cooking class.”) or Opening chooses us (“I was just laid off from my job, and now I have to go find another one.”).  ‘Chaos’, or ‘Transformation’, happens immediately after Opening, where we go through the action of whatever we were just in Opening with.  I.e. taking the cooking class, or applying to and obtaining a new job.

Here’s where we get stuck though… what happens when the second phase is overwhelming?  Or when we don’t have the tools we need to get past it?  The ‘chaos’ phase is NOT a phase you want to get stuck in!!  Yet, it happens every day.  I bet you can think of at least a dozen things that you have been stuck in the chaos phase with for some time now.  Well, this is where I can help.

I help people move into the third phase, which is called ‘Mastery’.  Mastery is the completion of the circle; the place you reach after you’ve learned, grown, obtained, etc.  How do I do this?  I use an energy technique called Crystalline Consciousness Technique (CCT), to move the “energy” of what is in chaos.  When we move (or shift) the energy of what is in chaos, Mastery is the next phase that happens.  To understand the in’s and out’s of this, I suggest you take the first two levels of CCT, so you can Master the protocol for yourself.  Once we have shifted the energy out of Chaos and into Mastery, I can also use my own gifts of keen energy-reading and discernment to help your mental body (brain) understand why you were stuck in the Chaos phase to begin with.  Is it a pattern that continually comes up?  Is it a trauma that existed from childhood?  Is it something from a past life?  Is it an agreement or belief you have?  These questions and more are what I answer for you as we move forward into Mastery.

So getting back to why I LOVE doing this… I love doing this because I love seeing people Empowered.  I love seeing people who have been in tremendous Chaos for days, weeks, months, even years, FINALLY move into Mastery.  I love seeing the relief on people’s faces when they can finally relax and Celebrate their success.  I love seeing people get answers to questions that they’ve had for years, or to questions they didn’t even know they had.  I love seeing people transform and grow and move on to bigger and better things.  I love seeing people re-connect with themselves at levels they thought were lost.

But this isn’t my intention for my life… I don’t want to be the ‘saving grace’ for everyone on the planet.  Instead, what I want to do is teach you how to work with the 3 Phases of Transformation on a daily basis so that the intense or prolonged phase of Chaos doesn’t overwhelm and exhaust you.  I want to teach you how to shift the energy BEFORE you’re in Opening, so that you can move through the Chaos phase (of whatever you’re doing) with grace and ease.  I want to teach people how to spiral this energy on a regular/daily basis so that you don’t get ‘stuck’ anymore.  I want to teach people how to evenly experience every phase so that one is not dominate over another.  When you can Master the 3 Phases of Transformation, you Master working with energy, and you can move into Mastery throughout your whole life.

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I am BIG on having my own choices and free will.  Anyone who knows me for even a short period of time knows that I do NOT like to have my Free Will & Choice taken away from me… Heaven help the poor soul’s who try!  =)

For a long time, I didn’t feel like I had much to choose from in life.  I’m pretty empathic… Being empathic means that you pick up on the thoughts and emotions (specifically emotions) of people around you.  If someone is happy, you’re happy.  If someone is sad, you’re sad.  Angry, you’re angry, etc.  Life is hard for empathics… when I was in school, I would pick up on the frustrations and tribulations of my school mates.  I almost failed my freshman year of high school because I couldn’t concentrate and used almost all of my energy for protection.  If that isn’t having your Free Will & Choice taken away, I don’t know what is!

The other thing I noticed was that I could not Contribute in the way in which I wanted (and sometimes needed) to… Because I was overwhelmed all the time, I couldn’t participate in the things I wanted to participate in.  I was fairly athletic, but I would get exhausted all the time, and thus stayed out of sports for most of my teen years.  It is SO frustrating to not be able to participate at the level I knew I was capable of.

But then came Crystalline Consciousness Technique (CCT).  Someone suggested I look at this ‘energy modality’ as a way to fix the problem that I still had as an adult.  And boy has it changed my life!  Not only did it help me discern what were “MY” feelings compared to everyone else’s, but I was finally able to participate in life at the level I knew I could!  I was finally able to choose my own thoughts, feelings, actions and reactions around everyone else, but I could Contribute day in and day out and not get tired from using all of my energy to defend myself.

The biggest thing I noticed?…..   CELEBRATION!  I was finally able to Celebrate my accomplishments, my incredible-ness, and my ability to choose what was right and not right for me.  No longer did I fall and fail trying to make myself ‘do good’… It came with grace and ease, and I haven’t looked back.

If this sounds like you, if you’ve had similar experiences, the CCT Level 1 class is for you!  This class teaches you how to set up what is called a ‘Crystalline Energy Field’, which is a container of energy that supports and protects your own personal energy.  You learn how to set up your Crystalline Energy Field for yourself, AND you learn how to set up a ‘Group’ Crystalline Energy Field for the groups of people you are around on a daily basis.  And the best part… once you take the class, you can use this tool every day for the rest of your life, which means you get daily support for your own wants and needs in life!

The next class is Saturday, September 5, 2015.  The cost is only $125, and it includes a free followup class on October 7th, 2015.  There are only three more opportunities to take this class in 2015… Saturday, November 21st, Wednesday, December 9th, and Saturday, December 12th.  Sign up at today!

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I’ve had a very interesting path through understanding and working with energy.  When I first discovered energy work (Reiki), it was cool in and of itself, but I found myself (at the beginning) feeling a little uneasy about practicing something that I couldn’t see, hear or touch.  I felt very vulnerable and open, especially when I received energy healing from others, because I didn’t understand how sensitive I was to it.  What ended up happening is that I blocked a lot of what was being provided to me, because the first thing that needed to happen in order to receive energetic healing wasn’t happening.


The first thing that ANYONE must do in order to practice energy work is to be and feel Safe while doing it.  If you don’t feel safe, you won’t be able to do the healing work that you intend to do.  The very first thing you need to do is create a safe, sacred space to do your healing work in.  Most of the time, the way this need is met is through a welcome and protected environment, free of noise and potential distractions or issues.  Also, you can talk to yourself, using what is sometimes referred to as a ‘mantra’ or ‘pep talk’, trying to mentally convince yourself that you are, indeed, safe.  But both of these ways do not address the ‘felt sense’ of being safe, which stems from your emotional body.  If you don’t FEEL safe, then it won’t matter where you are or the condition of the location you’re in, or how much you talk to yourself, you just plain won’t feel safe.


For anyone who has practiced energy work before, you have probably learned techniques that help achieve this.  The main issue with most techniques, though, is that it requires a tremendous amount of your own personal energy to achieve the result you need in order to move forward.  And for some people, that amount of energy can mostly or completely deplete you from doing your work.  The awesome thing is that with Crystalline Consciousness Technique (CCT), you don’t need to use your personal energy to create that essential level of Safety!  In the CCT Level 2 class, the very first thing you learn is how to utilize Crystalline Consciousness energy to create this for you, so you can devote ALL of your attention on more important things.


2015-04-30 Image 2If you’ve read or know anything about CCT, you may be saying, this sounds a lot like CCT Level 1?… and, well, it kind of is.  But when you take the CCT Level 2 class, your ability to create a safe, sacred space for yourself and others is amplified ten-fold, if not more!  Without going too in depth (you’ll have to take the class to find out the details), the first thing you learn is how to hold what is called “Energetic Space” for yourself and others.  I can’t begin to tell you how HUGE this is, and with CCT, doing this is as easy as pie!  Being able to hold a strong energetic “container”, as it is sometimes called, is essential to maintain balance and stabilization as you and others go through changes in your life.  The whole point of doing energy work at all is to shift and change things that are unsatisfactory in your life.  As things shift and change, though, it can create instability.  The first thing you learn in this class is how to remain stable as things shift for yourself.  And ‘Stability’ = ‘Safety’.


How this is achieved may be a little difficult to grasp completely, without understanding the in’s and out’s of how it works, so let me see if I can explain a little further… there is a great big, MASSIVE even, field of energy called Crystalline Consciousness.  This field of energy contains ALL information, ALL potential, and ALL consciousness that has ever or will ever exist within it.  It can be (and is) accessed by people, animals, and other living things all the time, although 99% of the time it is done sub or unconsciously.  Crystalline Consciousness Technique (CCT) is one way to consciously work with Crystalline Consciousness energy.  When you learn CCT Level 2, you learn how to align your own personal energy to Crystalline Consciousness energy using the Crystalline Consciousness Technique.  When you do this, it creates a resonance that is so strong, you can literally feel it.  In fact, it is so strong that many friends, family, and clients ask me to ‘hold space’ for them on a regular basis, to help them with whatever chaos they are going through.  I use this technique quite often, when I see someone in distress, or read about something bad that happened, or see an unfortunate news event.  I have found that when I do it often, I can hold space for myself and many MANY people around me at the same time.  The result is that those around me typically feel welcomed, calm, and at peace while they’re around me.  People comment all the time about it, but the best compliments I receive is that when I’m NOT around (after making regular appearances somewhere), others can really notice a difference.


All of this that I’ve described is so very important to your growth and understanding of how to work with energy.  Being able to appropriately and adequately hold space for yourself and others is a foundational requirement to practice energy work, especially now that the planet is shifting so dramatically.  If you feel unsafe in the world, or not at home in your own body, this class is of the utmost importance for you.  If you notice that you are often depleted, helping everyone else and never having enough energy to do what YOU need to do, this class is essential.  If you want to help others at the ULTIMATE level possible, sign up for the next CCT Level 2 class right now!


The next post will be on how we Contribute to ourselves and others, and how CCT Level 2 amplifies our ability to Contribute to levels you can’t even imagine yet!

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I recently had an experience which taught me about Energetic Integrity, so I thought I would share it.  Energetic Integrity is something that I am actually quite familiar with, but I learned about it in such a powerful way recently that it reminded me how much further this topic goes!


You might be scratching your head, wondering what I mean by Energetic Integrity… and you’re going to need to scratch a little longer I’m afraid.


In order to understand a concept like this one, I first need to talk a little about three specific energy centers located in your body, called the ‘3 Primary Energy Centers’.  The first one is your Sexual/Creative energy center, located in your “low belly”.  This energy center is in charge of ‘Creating’ through either a sexual act (ex: ‘procreating’) or via a creative action or endeavor.  Think of famous artists, like Vincent Van Gogh or Mozart; musicians/performers like Madonna or Justin Timberlake; and athletes like Serena Williams and Peyton Manning.  Strong S/C Energy Centers can create amazing things (not always good, I might add), and weak S/C Energy Centers will create weakness in the body, with little-to-no motivation either.


The second energy center is located at the heart, appropriately named ‘The Heart’ Energy Center.  This spot is in charge of emotional feelings that range in frequency from Fear and Powerlessness (low) to Joy, Enthusiasm and Love (high).  Think of people like Mother Theresa, Mohammed Gandhi, Oprah, Princess Di, Toni Morrison, Abraham Lincoln, and Judy Garland.  Strong Heart Energy Centers are open and loving, and can really hold space for others.  Weak Heart Energy Centers can result in circulation problems, heart issues, and spinal and back issues.


The third energy center is located in the forehead, and is called the ‘Psychic’ Energy Center.  The Psychic Energy Center is in charge of what is called ‘Intuitive Knowing’… you know how you sometimes just KNOW something even though you have no idea how you know it?  It’s because your Psychic Energy Center picked up on it.  Think of intellectuals and innovators like Leonardo Divinci, Albert Einstein, George Lucas, Henry Ford, Galileo, Benjamin Franklin, Walt Disney, and Sylvia Brown.  Strong Psychic Energy Centers help us increase our intuition, while weak ones will create pessimism, headaches, and all around detachment.


Now that we’ve gone through that mumbo jumbo, we can talk about Energetic Integrity.  What happens is that sometimes (actually, most times) we project any or all of these 3 Primary Energy Centers at other people, and other people project their energy centers at us!  This will happen if someone has intense needs that aren’t being fulfilled, or when we want to manipulate (intentionally or unintentionally) to do something we want them to do.  If there is a distortion that exists, then the distortion will be what is projected, but even the act of projecting that energy onto someone else is a distortion in and of itself.  An example of a distortion in the S/C energy center would be if someone experienced sexual abuse or trauma (either as the person causing the distortion or as the person being violated), or someone was trying to use their ‘charm’, physical appearance, or seduction techniques to get what they want.  An example of a distortion in the Heart energy center is when a healthy amount of ‘mothering’ moves into ‘smothering’… A “you WILL love me!” attitude sums it up nicely.  An example of a Psychic Energy Center distortion is a ‘psychic attack’… when someone tries to use their “power” to get their way.  Intense yelling/screaming, over-compensating assertion, and dominating abuse are indicators that a Psychic Energy Center is out of alignment.


When any of these 3 Primary Energy Centers are out of alignment and we’re projecting them inappropriately, we are NOT in Energetic Integrity.  To have Energetic Integrity means that I am not using ANY of my energy to distort, disrupt, corrupt, or otherwise affect someone else’s energy.  When I am out of Energetic Integrity, other people can REALLY be negatively affected by it.  The result?  Utter confusion, pain and suffering.


Luckily for me, one of the programs in CCT helps with EXACTLY this issue… it’s called, “Healing the Earth”.  In this class, the VERY FIRST thing we do is align these 3 Primary Energy Centers to something that helps us stay connected to our path and our Life Purpose, and so that we’re not spewing our Primary Energy Centers all over everyone else and the world around us.  This is such an important first step in creating what we want to create in the world… if the energy that helps us feel passion towards creating something (Heart) can’t be expressed (S/C) with your intuitive knowing (Psychic), then it’s not creating what you really WANT to create!  It’s out mixing with other people’s distorted energy centers, and you’re not able to even come close to reaching your FULLEST potential.  You start to feel like a hamster on a wheel… either going, going, going with no enthusiasm or drive (and usually with quite a bit of bitterness or dissatisfaction), or you try and fail over and over and over again.  If this describes you, then this class is an absolute MUST.


Look for my upcoming blog post… “Why Energetic Knowledge Doesn’t Make You An All-Peaceful Saint, and Why That’s Ok!”

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2015-02-16 Embracing the Chaos PictureI’d like to start off with a story… In January of 2015, a good friend of mine contacted me about speaking at a Spiritualist Church on February 15th… now, this friend had asked me a few times to speak throughout 2014, but I was travelling around the country for 7 months and wasn’t in town long enough to make it happen.  As I was reading her message, my heart beat a little faster, and my hands got sweaty, thinking about speaking here today… Now, this isn’t normal for me when I think about public speaking.  In fact, I quite enjoy it!  I mean, how often do you get to be the center of attention in a room full of amazing people at a Spiritualist Church?!  But… I had an immediate “negative” reaction to her request… for me, this time, it wasn’t about the act of speaking, but it was with regards to the date of the speaking opportunity that had me flustered and unsure of myself.  You see, the day before the 15th (Valentine’s Day) would mark the anniversary of the absolute hardest event that has ever happened to me in my life, and my friend’s request to give ‘an inspiring talk about my adventures’ seemed completely out of the question.  I mean, how inspiring could I be when I’m going through my own process?  How can I lead a group of people in a talk when I’m experiencing such Chaos in my life?  I messaged her back and asked for some time to think about it.  As soon as I pressed send, it hit me… “Those were the EXACT reasons why I needed to do it!”. 


“Chaos” has been a very prevalent part of my life in the last year.  And… “Chaos” was a very prevalent part in YOUR life in the last year too.  Chaos is a very normal and re-occurring part of what is known as the ‘Universal Law of Transformation’.  When I read energy, a key aspect of what I look at is where someone is in the process of the Universal Law of Transformation.  When I can understand where I am or where someone else is in relationship to whatever is going on in my (or their) lives, I have a whole new perspective on ‘why’ things have happened thus far, what to expect moving forward, and what to focus on in the present.


The Universal Law of Transformation has three working components, otherwise known as ‘phases’.   They are called ‘Opening’, ‘Chaos’ and ‘Mastery’.  Opening is all about ‘New Beginnings’, and when you are in this phase you typically, although not always, experience fun, excitement, possibility… and most importantly, POTENTIAL.  Everything that “IS” had its start in Opening.  New ideas, new companies, new relationships, new adventures and the like are all facets of Opening.  Opening is typically a very ‘light’ time, with lots of Play, wonderment, and Enthusiasm, but it can also have its down side too.  There are many people who get hooked on the rush you get from Opening… Daredevils, Shopaholics, Chronic daters or people who bounce from job to job to job are examples of people who are addicted to Opening.  I’ll discuss another downside of Opening in just a bit.


The second phase, ‘Chaos’ is a very VERY normal and essential part of the transformation process… it’s the period of time that exists between the first phase of Opening and the third phase of Mastery.  Chaos is the stage where the most Growth happens.  Once you have a new idea, or get into a new relationship, or discover a new adventure, and you begin to move forward with ‘bringing it into being’, you have moved from the stage of Opening into the stage of Chaos.  Chaos essentially means Growth.


Now, it’s important to note, that ‘Chaos’ does not necessarily need to mean “chaotic”.  Yes, there are times in your life that are crazy, hectic, and chaotic, and if you’re experiencing that it will feel like “chaos”… but “Chaos” can also mean that everything is SUPER, and you can fully enjoy it!  Think about something that you learned recently, something that was fun and exciting and you learned a lot, and you grew… it could be a dance class, or exercising, or gardening, or crocheting, or learning a new song…    Hearing or thinking about doing that thing was ‘Opening’ for you, and doing it was ‘Chaos’… and it was fun!  I remember learning how to drum last summer, with a group of people, and it was great!  LOTS of chaos, lots of learning and growth, but still, it was the ‘Chaos’ phase.


The third phase, ‘Mastery’, is all about the completion or ending of something… Mastery is when things get smooth and easy… if you are in ‘Mastery’, life (or specific aspects of life) are effortless, and can be very rewarding.  Mastery is typically a desirable time, even though Opening can be fun and Chaos means you’re learning and growing… we experience overall satisfaction by experiencing Mastery.  As with everything, there can be a down side to Mastery as well… there are many people who get stuck in Mastery, and who are unwilling (or sometimes unable) to move into new levels of Opening.  When there is a refusal or block to move on from Mastery into the next cycle of transformation, one can experience jealousy, frustration, judgment, and/or fear about life and its components.


My dilemma when my friend asked me to speak was that I wasn’t in Mastery yet, I was still in Chaos.  I also had an expectation, real or made up, that I may be in Chaos still during the first anniversary weekend of the event that changed my life… and I was afraid that I wouldn’t be able to give a good ‘inspiring’ message if I wasn’t able to move into Mastery.  When someone creates something for the world, we typically see it when it’s in Mastery…  we don’t read the newest best seller or self-help book if the last few chapters are missing.  We don’t listen to music that doesn’t have some sort of structure, melody, or proper ending to it… when we present something to the world, we typically want it to be in Mastery, and others’ who experience it would generally concur that they want it to be in Mastery as well.


But this was no reason to not speak at the church.  In fact, the very thing I was going through is what I spoke on… Chaos!  What better way to ‘Embrace the Chaos’ than to speak on that very subject?! =)  Just because I’m in Chaos doesn’t mean that I don’t have something valuable to share… and it doesn’t mean I can’t take that opportunity to assist myself in the process either.  Had I told my friend “No”, I would be stopping the process of my transformation, or at the very least slowing it down.  Here was an opportunity to step up and fully own where I am in life, and to share that with you today.


So… as I mentioned earlier, there are people who are addicted to the first phase in the Universal Law of Transformation… Opening.  As soon as they begin to move from Opening into Chaos, they move on to the next person, place or thing… Thereby, seemingly avoiding the Chaos or Mastery phase all together.  But this is just a veil that they use to cover what they don’t want to embrace.  What happens is that they are actually building up layer upon layer of Chaos without even realizing it, and never reach Mastery with anything.  If the Chaos is favorable, this can be a good thing… if the Chaos is not, it will be more difficult.  An example would be when we have opinions about people… if we have a judgment about someone or something, and we never resolve it, it will show up again in other ways, giving us a chance to resolve it.  The more we ignore it, or choose to block it in some way, the more the layers pile up, until we experience Chaos every day, over and over again, in every area of our lives.  It becomes very difficult to find Love, Peace and Acceptance when you spend a majority (or all) of your time in Chaos.


So, what does ‘Embracing the Chaos’ really mean?


It means that I need to recognize when “Opening” happens… when and how it happens, what it entailed, and when it’s about to be over……      When I recognize that it has happened, I know the “Chaos” phase is about to happen….     Remember that the Chaos phase just means that things are changing… and that is not necessarily a bad thing.  And…    just because things are changing, doesn’t mean that the last phase, “Mastery”, won’t happen.  Mastery always follows Chaos…     if we let it!


When we resist Chaos, all it does is holds off Mastery longer.  The point of all of it is to get to Mastery as gracefully and easily as we can.  It can’t happen if we hold Chaos up.  That means, when we stop abruptly in the Chaos phase, or if we delay it in any way, we are only stopping ourselves from experiencing what we really want to experience.  If the level of Mastery that comes in is not what we want, we can always begin a new level of transformation.  We would need to enter into Opening again (i.e. coming up with a plan), moving through Chaos (implementing the plan), and moving into the next stage of Mastery (full or partial actualization of the plan).  We repeat this process until we get a desired outcome.  When you “Embrace the Chaos”, you are allowing whatever is happening in your life to happen.  If you feel called to act in any way, that is fine, as long as your intention is focused on moving through it and into Mastery.  We have to be careful to have Integrity and Self-Responsibility when we practice this, because we will sometimes resist the Chaos without realizing we are.  The key is recognizing where we are in the process, and remind ourselves that the next phase is coming.  If we are uncomfortable, whatever you do, do NOT stop the energy from flowing!  Stopping it resolves nothing… keeping it moving allows us to work with it.


So what happens when ‘Opening’ happens to you without your consent?  What happens when something happens to you that moves you into Opening with something you don’t want to deal with?  …. Which forces a level of Chaos that is also unwelcomed and unappreciated?  This is what happened to me a year ago…   my partner suddenly and very unexpectedly passed away.  It was the ‘beginning’ of a new life for me.  And even though I was in Opening for only a second, the resulting Chaos from that singular event took a full year to shift through, and it’s still shifting.  What I was able to do was to see this, even in my grieving state, and knew that the more I ‘Embraced the Chaos’ that was seemingly thrust at me, the quicker I would get to Mastery.  This became the focus of my life… my new purpose…        “Embrace this… there’s nothing I can do about it… it’s out of my control… what IS in my control, is that every decision I make from this moment on, is all geared towards my own process and what I need to feel so that life can be smooth and easy again.  The more I let the energy move, and didn’t try to stop it, or let it stop me, the easier life became.  I reached smaller levels of Mastery periodically, and each one helped me feel like I was in a better place.  Instead of spending all day, every day in Chaos, I had glimmers of and experiences with Mastery.  The alleviation of the turmoil from the Chaos was worth its weight in gold.  I would not have been able to be where I am today if I didn’t Embrace the Chaos like I did. 


I hope I don’t make this sound too easy… it certainly has not been.  I am tested every day…. WE are tested every day…   to ‘Embrace the Chaos’.  Sometimes we will crumble, and sometimes we will move through it.  The important thing is that no matter what we’re faced with, we need to at the very least take small steps into Mastery, whenever we find ourselves in the middle of Chaos; especially if that chaos is unfavorable.  We cannot get wrapped up in stopping anything from moving forward… we must allow ourselves the ability…    the choice…     to move through it.  Growth is what is important here… we grow when we are in Chaos… whether it is favorable or unfavorable.  The trick is learning how to embrace the growth… the Chaos… when we just don’t feel like it.  Again, we must first recognize what Opening was.  Then we need to recognize when we’re in Chaos.  Then we have to decide for ourselves whether we want to stay where we are, or do what we need to do to move through it.


There is a famous quote, spoken by Mia Farrow of all people!… she said, “Life is about losing, and doing it as gracefully as you can.”  I don’t quite agree with that…       instead, I would say, “Life is about transforming, and doing it as gracefully as you can.”  I hope I was able to shed some light on your world by connecting you to looking at it through the lens of this perspective…  the next time you feel stress, anxiety, fear, or resistance… ask yourself, “Am I Embracing the Chaos?”.

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