What the 2016 election has done for me…

What the 2016 election has done for me…

 

It has reinvigorated my drive to become as conscious as possible.  I intend to work as diligently as I can to look at all sides of situations, to understand what is happening and why, and to step out beyond my ego’s perspective so that I can fully embrace what is being asked of me.

 

It has reinvigorated my drive to help others become as conscious as possible too.  There are many many people out there who have the drive and intense desire to become conscious individuals, just like me.  If I can help even one of them with their goal, I’ll be happy…. Even if that one person is just me.

 

2016-11-09 Conscious Eye

 

It is helping me look at where I still have traumas from my past, not only in this lifetime but in all lifetimes, and for that, I am grateful.  What I experience when I interact with the world is a reflection of where I am and what can potentially shift for me.  This election (not just the result, but the whole election process) has helped me understand where I still have issues that need resolving.  Whenever I’m triggered emotionally, there is something there asking to be transformed.

 

It is helping me begin to understand Groups at a whole new level.  Groups of people have been a source of trauma for me… I’ve had a lot of traumatic experiences because I’ve been in ‘Groups’ before, and a lot of those issues are coming up now, again, asking to be shifted and transformed.  I don’t have all the pieces in place yet, but I can feel it coming in energetically.  I trust that when it all assimilates, I will have deeper understandings about how Groups work… the good, the bad, and the ugly.  Deeper understandings will help me transform how I interact with and show up in Groups, which will also help everyone else involved.

 

It is helping me step in to my Leadership as a Visionary and Energy Master.  I look at the world very differently than most people.  I see and read energy at a very high and masterful level, and because of this, I make decisions and choices that some or most don’t necessarily understand, but that turn out to be the right ones.  My next task is to help others step into their power and discernment.  And this election process has helped me understand where the masses are… there is much work to be done.

 

It is helping me understand my ego and when it is working against my intentions.  Everyone has an ego.  The ego is designed to protect us… to create a barrier between our core essence and what it perceives in the world as a threat.  Some call this an ego ‘sleeve’.  By understanding the ego, by evolving consciously to the point where I know if I’m speaking through my core essence or my ego, I can start to work WITH my ego, so that it’s not working against me or what I’m out doing in the world.

 

It is helping me be the kind of person I want to see and interact with.  The only thing I can control is myself.  Even in an election year, we only have perceived control of anything outside of us.  When we think, “My party won.” or “Your party lost.”, it is all temporary anyway.  Being in Groups is about the ebb and flow, the dance, of being heard and listening, of being in the majority and being in the minority.  But no matter what happens “out there”, I can still speak and act from my core essence in all things I do.  I am thankful that this election process has helped me clearly see when and where I speak through my ego and when and where I speak through my core essence.

 

It is helping me focus on what is important, and let go of what is not.  We have a tendency of focusing on things that are actually not important in our lives, and pretending (or believing) that they actually are.  This election has reminded me of what is important in MY life, and it is helping me re-focus on what I find important, and what I’ve just told myself is.  My health, my family, my friends, clients, teachers, life goals, etc., these are the important things to me.  I get to now let go of what I’ve though has been important and get to reconnect with what really is.  Everything is temporary anyway.

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It’s not easy being ourselves sometimes… especially when someone else doesn’t understand who we are or what we’re going through.  It’s easy to meet someone where they are when we understand them, but much more difficult when we don’t have a clue what they’re going through.  It can trigger all sorts of negative inward self and outward talk, and all because there is no seen basis of commonality.

 

Such was the case last night.  As a gay man, I posted a short article intended to help others understand what it is like for a gay person to come out.  I also included a message to those who might potentially be reading it who haven’t come out yet, offering words of encouragement and support, and a message to those who aren’t gay, and how they can best help someone who they think might be.  One of my assumed friends had a hard time with this… he was triggered.  He did not understand what I have gone through, nor what so many other gay people have gone through in their lifetimes.  Instead of finding the commonality, he chose to try and tear me down through the post I mentioned, plus an additional post, plus through instant messenger.  He was triggered so badly that he talked down to me immediately on each post, and told me numerous times, unprovoked, that if I “didn’t understand it (what he was sending to me), maybe I could have somebody read it to me.”

 

This, unfortunately, triggered the HELL out of me!  It’s one thing if he (or anyone) has an opinion on homosexuality… they’re allowed.  But it’s quite another to put me or anyone else down because they think you’re too stupid to understand something like the bible and the messages it shares.  AND… that if I only read the bible and understood it, I could somehow change who I am from a rational standpoint.  This is what I mean by ‘negative outward talk’… he didn’t (and doesn’t) understand what it means to be gay, and because of this lack of understanding, he was triggered and reacted in a negative way towards the source of what he doesn’t understand.  And as I said, I, unfortunately, was also triggered by what I didn’t understand… his behavior.

 

Here is where the transformation potential comes in… first, I need to own the fact that whatever I feel or felt during this exchange, is MINE.  It is not his.  It’s not anybody else’s but mine.  I am triggered.  I have emotions around this.  He showed me where I have emotions around this topic.  And when I can fully take ownership of how I felt during the conversation, I can transform it into something that is much more supportive to growth, instead of falling into the trap of blame and condemnation.

 

2016-10-12 Transformation

 

If I were to try to work through this by myself, it might take a while.  It’s REALLY hard to not want to blame or criticize someone else when you are being triggered by something they’re saying or doing.  It’s so EASY to lash out at them, to try to hold them accountable for the way you feel.  To get to a place of resolve, if that’s even possible, can take a REALLY long time… and it’s harder than all get out too!  So for me, I turn to what I have chosen to practice and teach, CCT.  Using a CCT Level 2 healing session, I am able to transform MY emotions from this event, so that the next time I find myself in a similar situation (IF I find myself in a similar situation), I have learned and grown from this experience, and can act and react in a different and better way.

 

I am not ashamed of how I reacted in this situation… I set a clear boundary for this person, and for anyone else who chooses to talk down to me.  There is nothing wrong with setting a boundary like that.  But if I don’t transform my emotional stance around it, I am doing myself a dis-service, an injustice.  I’m the only person who gets to be with me day in and day out… I’m the only person who is negatively effected if I hold on to the negative feelings I felt last night.  I am the only one responsible for how I feel about what happened, and I am the only one responsible for changing those feelings.

 

This is why I’ve chosen to teach CCT… we have all been there.  We are ALL triggered on a regular basis.  We ALL have the opportunity to transform and grow, to take each and every situation in our lives and ask what it is teaching us.  I want to help you do the same for yourself… I want to help you find resolve and peace from negative events and patterns that show up in your life.  I want you to discover how easy it is to move into the flow of transformation, and that choosing to rise above the situations in your life, instead of staying at the same level or going through the pain-stakingly long process of trying to transform without any or few tools, can be fun and enlightening.

 

If this resonates with you, consider learning CCT for yourself.  I have a Level 2 class coming up soon in Toledo, and will be teaching more next year.  Message me if you’re interested, or register on my website at: www.RayofLifeHealing.com/classes/CCT-Level-2/

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